Understanding Life

yesterday after school, on our way home, she tells me:

“you need a job”

sooo today i got a promo offer and i’d get paid. so i told her

“my friend offered me a job on Tuesday and i’ll get paid. i have to go at 9:30am to the place and we’ll go from there” [cause its to promote a beauty salon, so i have to get there early so they can do my hair and make up and then me and anotehr friend would go to the mall to promote the salon]

to which my mom had the nerve to reply:

“Tuesday? you have school” and shaking her head, gesturing a ‘No’

so i’m just like

DO YOU WANT ME TO WORK OR NOT?!

DONT YOU WANT ME TO GET MY OWN DAMN MONEY?!

you know how the world has like a shit load of mysteries? well my mom is definitely one of them -_________________-“”

after tonight i will try my super hardest to not waste another cent

i need/want to buy many things!

i need/want to change my style a bit. so i need to go shopping.

i want to buy these for one of my friends as a birthday gift. [bday is in May]

and i wanna get these for myself, cause i totally flipped shit when i saw these:

soooooooooooooo i need to get my shit together to save money lol

hopefully i get the bday gifts i wanna get before May so fingers crossed :3 ^^

so far this weekend

has been awesome.

thursday: went to Rio Piedras with my friends, and the first person i see is my neighbor! so the night started fucking awesome. then we met up with anotehr friend of mine, and she bought me my first shot of tequila. and this gay guy was standing next to us and he teached me how to take a shot properly and we said cheers. and he was like “to a gurls niiiiiiight!!!” hahaha so i had my first shot ever of tequila, after already drinking a whole bottle of wine. so after that the night was just so awesome. never got drunk though. since it was a new place and too many people around, its just a thing, i didnt get drunk but i was “tipsy-happy” and we walked everywhere. and at one point i got emotional when i ran up to my neighbor, and she was talking to someone, and she was like “dude” and she pointed at the person she was talking to. and when i saw him it took me like 3 seconds to analize who he was. and i just felt all emotional cause it was my best friend from highschool and i hadnt seen him in over a year. he was like “dont you notice something?” and iwas like “um.. new haircut?” and he was like “no.. im here” and iwas like “uh… i know lol” and he was like “no, i mean im here, as in my probation was taken off” and iwas like ” holy crap! i forgot about ur probation!” yeah he had a little encounter with the Law and was set on probation and coulndt be outside his house after 6pm for 11 months. but anyways. otehr than that. i kept bumping in to people i havent seen since highschool. and it was also fun cause teh friend i went with, had a pick up truck, so when we noticed the places were full we just came back to the pick up truck and we’d sit there. and drink from some vodka i bought. yeah im nice and liek to buy shit for my friends [this is why i hate having too much money lol] but eitehr way, it was fucking fun. andi needed a night with a bunch of frinds just like thursday. it was the perfect distraction and for once in a very long time, i wasnt feeling alone even with people around. :)

friday: WELL i had plans with Michelle to go get some ice cream in San Juan. but at the very last minute she had to cancel cause she couldnt make it. sooo i took my mom to the hospital [yeah my grandfather is still in the hospital. its gonna be a month in like 2 days taht he’s been in intensive care…] so i took my mom tehre and stayed with the car. and texted a few of my friends, but everyone was working so i just gave up and went home. after 15 minutes i get a call from one of my friends. and she invited me to go over to her house and rent movies and have a movie night. sooo we went to redbox and rented Paranormal Activity 3. Hostel 3 and i dont remember the otehr one LOL we went to tteh supermarket to buy wine. [i oficially prefer wine over beer. in a way, its a healthy choice so stfu ^^] sooo we watched PAranormal Activity. and during the movie i had an anxiety attack, not because of the movie, it was just one of my random attacks. dor no reason. and we had to pause it for a bit while it went away. then we just kept watching. and i was screaming like an idiot hahahaha XD and had the jacet all over my face XD and Alex was just laughing and i wasl ike SHUT UP BITCH! XD then started watching Hostel but i had to leave cause it was 12am already. [she called me at 8pm so while we went to the supermarket and redbox it was 10pm already]

today [saturday]: for now its to go out with 3 of my friends to go support one of my friends band. maybe thats the only thing we’ll do cause i have no money hahah XD although my friends said that they all owe me for thrusday, they said they’d buy me anything tonight to get even and not owe me anything. i’m the type of person that lieks to buy people stuff, but dont like when people buy stuff for me. lol. but in this occasion i really have no money for tonight. so i think i could make an exception. i know i’ll still be like “u dont have to” but idk hahaha XD

ANYWAYS, im gonna go make 2 essays now, to get homework outta the way. damn, i feel responsible this semester. haha thats how much i want to get the fuck out to Florida already and start studying what i want. ^^

i know i havent been on so much. but my queue still posts and stuff and i post every now and then, i’ll try to get back on track with u guys.

and if any of u are still reading, i might turn on the Anon option again. idk. i just feel like it.

kbye :) ♥

this was def the best highlight in Time Square hahaha

my ears are burning sooooo much. lol i just changed my ear plugs/gauges
i dont really tolerate pain on my ears that well. but it goes away after a bit.

lol when my mom first saw my gauges [i was at 10g when she noticed them]
she was like “wtf is that?”
and i was like “uh, earring, what else could it be?”
and she was like “you better not open your ear!”
and i was like “yeah yeah. i wont”
I LIED MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
but the ones i’ve bought arent big enough anyways. im at 6g.
i wanna get the metal ones and stay with those for a bit.
but they’re 18$ in hot topic -_- and i dont know where else to get them.
grrr.
iwould get them from this site Dev showed me, but i just dont trust paying with a credit card online and then getting the wrong order and stuff.
or worse stealing ma moneh.
but i thikn i have to turn to that -_-

or i could use my christmas money…well idk. depends on how much i get, or IF i get christmas money. lol
cause i wanna buy a few other things if i get money. like [more tshirt of course] new jeans, and of course new shoes. just 2 pairs. these amazing black leather boots from Charlotte Russe and a pair of Vans or Converse, since my converse are totally torn up, i’ve had them for years.
ineed new shoes ASAP, cause the boots i used to wear like died. they just idk, they just died. and i cant wear my black converse cause they’re the anckle high ones and they’re not even black anymore, they’re faded. so yeah. new shoes lol i only have 4 inch heels and crocs… so yeah, new shoes ASAP lol.

yeah i dont own 10pairs of shoes for every ocassion, i always buy a pair of shoes tha twill go with everything i wear. the boots i had i wore them with everything. so tahst why i want the new boots. cause they go with everything i have and everything i will wear.

hopefully i get enough to buy at least a shirt, jeans and shoes. and some make up also so i can try new ideas.

so yeah i totally changed the subject haha. i’ll stop now XD my ears are still burning though. wah.